September

Dear Blue,
I miss you more than ever. Sometimes I just sit for what seems like forever thinking about you. Today I had a doctors appointment and there were 3 women sitting next to me with big belly bumps. I watched them as they held their bellies, smiled as they felt their babies move, and watched them stare into a distance thinking of what was to come. I will be honest, lately I have dreaded seeing mommies like these because I was jealous. But today I sat there and watched in awe as these women nurtured their unborn children. It was a moment of peace to me. I just sat there and smiled and thought back to the 12 weeks that I had with you. Even though you were not big enough to make my belly protrude like theirs, I still rubbed my belly all the time. It was kinda like giving you a hug from the outside :) I miss you so much. Daddy does too. We talk about you often. There isn't a second that goes by that I don't wish that you were here.

I love you more than anything.
Mommy